I can’t help but think of Abraham during this time. No parent ever wants to think about losing a child. But I can’t help but think that maybe we are being called to be a modern day Abraham.
Abraham was called to do some really huge things by God. God asked Abraham and his wife to leave their home and travel to an unknown promise land. God promised Abraham in return for his obedience that Abraham would become the father of many nations.
But God and Abraham had very different visions on how that would happen. Abraham was already older and yet he still obeyed God’s commands. But then even more confusing to Abraham he only had one son with Sarah. How could he be the father of many nations with only one son?
But it then got even more complicated. You see Abraham was called by God to sacrifice his son Isaac. What was Abraham’s answer to that call? Complete and total obedience. He didn’t hesitate, he just trusted that God was a loving God and would bring something amazing out of this.
Abraham received his instructions and early the next morning he got up and set out on his journey. We are trusting God with our journey also. I pray that I am stepping out in complete and total obedience. No parent ever wants to think about this, but we are facing a significantly shortened life span for Cade.
Writing that just made me tear up. I hesitated even writing this post. Mostly because it makes me ache, physically and emotionally. It makes that lump in the pit of my stomach move up a little closer to my throat. It makes my heart beat frantically. It gives me the shakes. It makes me go to another room and cry.
Yet we also have to prepare for our calling in this journey. Just as Abraham set out preparing for his journey knowing the outcome, we must also prepare for the outcomes of our journey.
I just have to remember to focus on Jeremiah 29:11 which says: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Our ultimate prayer is for a cure and that God will spare Cade’s life just as He spared Isaac’s.