We have hit summer running and haven’t looked back. Unfortunately, I was not prepared to hit summer at such a fast pace. And maybe that is the problem.
See, I don’t know that i have enjoyed one bit of summer so far. I love schedules. I crave routine. And there hasn’t been one day with either yet!
We have all these great projects that we did for Cade and I don’t take the time to enjoy them too. Take the chickens for example. We finally brought home chickens that were already laying eggs. Cade has been pretty much consumed with spending time with them. He was even able to watch one lay an egg!
He always asks me to join him watching the chickens. I however, just keeping thinking about things that need to be done. So I briefly sit with him and then sneak out and venture onto another project. And I realized that I am missing out on something, quality time with Cade doing something he loves.
And when Cade is not spending time watching chickens and checking for eggs, you can find him in his garden. He looks at how his plants are progressing. He “pets” them and talks to them. And my task-oriented mind focuses on the need for watering and weeding. That and the fact that only part of my garden was planted since I had to help Cole and Cade.
But tonight I decided to take a breath and accept that supper couldn’t be later than I scheduled it for, and I finished planting my garden. And I enjoyed it too.
And I realized that things have changed for my family and I am still trying to figure out how to schedule it just like I used to do. I can’t do that anymore or I will miss so much more than a load of laundry or a sink full of dishes. I will miss all the stages that our lives are about to go through.
So for now I am going to work on slowing down. I will still try to plan my day a little bit of supper isn’t until 8, I am going to be okay with that too.